Ordinary (Original Song) by Tim Be Told

I'm really blessed with the honesty he sang in this song.

"Why am I such in a rush to be somebody, leaving behind all the things I'd rather be?"
"People always telling me that I am something special, well, it's too much pressure to take"
"I may never be a perfect person but I'll do my best to try to make you happy"
"I will never meet your expectation but I never care at all"

Enjoy!

Encouraged

I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Phillipians 4:13

It's amazing how God encourages us in ministry especially in times when we are down.

This weekend has been tiring for me. I am attending a friend's wedding in LA but I have to be back on Sunday because I lead worship in Sunday School. I went with sore throat and come back with a flu.

I am supposed to be in class by 9.45 this morning, but I couldn't get there earlier than 10. In my head I started to think worst case scenario where the kids are going to be hyper and running around (as what usually happens in my class) and I have to yell aloud through my flu. I also prepared to tell the Children's Ministry coordinator that it's too much for me, I can't come on time, and that I better stop doing this altogether. Along with that I plead to God to help me since there is no way I can do it without Him.

I arrived late in class. I can barely speak loud enough through the flu, but interestingly the kids are pretty responsive. Instead of running around, the kids sat in circle and I started with prayer. We sang Hallelujah praise ye the Lord in Indonesian. The kids got so excited to sing in different languages that I promise next time I'll try to google it so we can sing it in Spanish. (Ha!)

Then Elianne got an idea to have some of the kids sit down during Hallelujah and stand up during "Praise ye the Lord" - it was so fun! Then we sing it slower and faster. When the middleschoolers came, we sing "Jesus loves me" as we do offering - then Elianne said "I bet you don't know how to sing it in Chinese", so we did! I don't have the lyrics on the power point so I have to promise them next time I'll have the text on. I guess it's not time to quit yet.

I smile when I think about this morning. I know only God can put order in my class!

Redeemed

My car got towed today T.T
No surprise, it was my fault anyway....

So I had meeting at some friends' apartment - which has parking limit of 3 hours. After meeting, I moved my car to another spot (around 5.30 PM) and left for dinner and dessert after. I came back around 10.30 PM and my car is GONE!

One thing for sure I learned - rules are there to be followed, not to be broken. I need to get into habit to ALWAYS choose to do the RIGHT thing even when NO ONE is checking on me! A lot of time I compromise with rules and regulation, because everyone else is doing it or because it is not reinforced anyway. Should've learned from Nana!

As I told my friends that my car got towed, they generously told me that we are going to split the cost of retrieving the car (aren't they sweet??). But of course it does not make sense for me to do that because I am the one at fault. Why should they help paying for my mistakes? All the way home after retrieving my car, I kept thinking how unfair it is for my friends to pay for my mistake.

Nevertheless, I know ONE person who chose to pay for my mistake - IN FULL! Yes, you got that right! It's Jesus! I am the sinner, yet He is the one who bears the punishments. He paid my debts in full. It is unfair for Jesus to pay for my sins, yet he did that anyway.....

All in all, I came home with a deeper understanding of redemption - that I made mistakes but Jesus covered them with His blood - more motivation to pursue holiness.

Yes, it is kinda hurt to pay so much money to retrieve the car, but my biggest debt has been paid in full at the cross. I am forever grateful. Besides, it's God's money anyway, if He thinks it is how much it cost to teach me a lesson, then I shouldn't have any complains.

Blessed evening

Last Friday I got a chance to go to " An Evening with Mercy Me & Francis Chan". People have been asking if I wanted to go since last month, but I was not sure if I could / wanted to go. Last minute, one of our friends who has ticket decided not to go because he has to take care of new students - so I got spare ticket for me - and I'm really glad that I got to go. Having Mercy Me & Francis Chan shared their experiences with the Lord was great, having Rachel Chan (Francis' oldest daughter) also onstage was a cherry (or sprinkles?) on top of ice cream!

I just finished reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan (eventhough Nana's been advertising the book for years now) and I am very encouraged and challenged by his passion to take the Bible really seriously and follow Jesus without compromise. One thing that really impressed me was Francis' life example. He truly models what it means to put God first - sharing with the poor (bulk amount of royalty earnings from his bestselling books goes to charity), leaving a mega church (and all its fame and reputation) to start church planting movement among the poor in Tenderloin District of San Francisco. He always gets confused why people calls him radical because he is convinced that's exactly how a follower of Christ should live.

Throughout the night, the Holy Spirit gently speaks to me through the band & Francis. One of the things that was a highlight for me was when Bart Millard shared how he imagined to be in heaven, meeting with all the greatest saints in the Bible. He would ask Moses, "what is it like when the Red Sea parted", then Moses would asked him back, "No.....YOU tell me what is it like to have the Spirit of the Living God in you?"
For as we received the gift of salvation in Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit come and dwells in us, believers. Through Him we found power to live in His light, to obey Christ, and to minister in His name.

Although I'm pretty sure I've heard it somewhere before, I was so blessed to be reminded of this fact. I often take for granted the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life. I do pray as I studied the Bible that He would open my mind and give understanding, but I often belittle the POWER of the Spirit to change lives.

Another highlight was when Francis come up to the stage with his daughter, Rachel. For the whole time they were at the stage together, Rachel has her arms around Francis waist, hugging her dad. Then Francis shared one prayer he has for his daughter is that she may love God. He also shares his frustration in early years when he doesn't think his daughter got it, and the realization that you can't make someone to love God. It resonates with me as I too share this kind of frustration.

Throughout this week I've been praying for God to help me to love Him more, to know what it means to love Him and put Him first.  

I've said earlier that having Rachel onstage was cherry on top of ice cream, so I saved it for last. I love all her songs - I think I have found a new favorite artist! =)
Despite being young, all the lyrics reflect a sense of security in her identity in Christ. The songs also talk about friendship, boys, uncertain future, peer pressure in an honest way - all in light of who she is in Christ.
Go check it out for yourself!

Have a blessed week!

Fonda

Quality time with Wesley

Sharing with you the times I spent with Wesley.....

The Rustam kids have a unique quality - the more you spend time with them the faster you miss them too.....

Thanks for letting me spend time with your kids, ci Kiki & ko Chris! They are such a blessing =)

I will follow U

Hi there......

Sorry for the loooooooong absence.....never seem to be able to find the time to be quiet and write lately.....everything seems to be soooo hectic. Anyways, just want to shoot a quick one before I forget.

Yesterday I went to visit a co-worker, V, at the hospital. He just recently got hospitalized because he is having more and more difficulties breathing. A number of friends from office visit the day before and they gave me the room number but when I got there with another friend, we couldn't find V. Later we found out that V was moved to ICU unit that day, and someone told us the room number and how to get there.

I was just off work, tired and hungry, my mind doesn't seem to work so I told my friend, "You were listening to the directions, right? I will follow you." Not long after I said that, I started realized my friend was missing. Apparently I was walking ahead of him and did not realize he made a right turn on the first door. Duuhhh.....

God reminded me that I do that to Him often too. A lot of times I said "OK, God, I will follow You" but I was walking ahead and I did not even pay attention or focus on His presence. When things get frustrating, instead of following Jesus to a quiet place to pray, I went ahead and vent first. I guess I am a terrible follower....

But thank God for his kindness and mercy, and also for the gentle Holy Spirit rebukes. There is HOPE in Jesus!

As for prayer request, please pray for healing for V. He is really sick.....

Have a great weekend, everyone! Enjoy the rain! =)